I'm fucking pissed off.
Just let me rant okay. Just let me fucking rant.
I'm fucking pissed off that I can't earn a bit of money so that I can balance out my DAILY MEALS, STUDYING AT STARBUCKS and just one. ONE. ONE SIMPLE GAME of IIDX per day. Don't even fucking talk about birthday presents. I survive on one meal per day just to sustain my hunger and end up getting a fucking gastric pain. Why don't I get a job? Cos I'm fucking focusing my energies into studying so I can pull up my low GPA score. Why? So I can get into a local uni. Why? 'Cos it's cheaper and my parents don't have to worry about paying more.
I'm fucking pissed off at my dad for assuming that "I played all day until I forget to eat" when it was because of abovementioned reason. And FUCK. I was STUDYING. I was DOING MY REPORT. I. AM. OFFENDED. I AM.
I'm fucking pissed off because this semester I'm trying so hard and my DAD has to come and say I PLAY so much. I fucking trying to put my 110% in all my lessons, try to read my notes beforehand, do my tutorials diligently (Okay fine. Sometimes I just don't bother.), put in my best for projects and he has the CHEEK to come and say PLAY? PLAY?? I barely even fucking touch jubeat anymore for god's sakes. I'm limiting to try at most 2 games of IIDX each time I go to the arcade. If I'm feeling rich, maybe 3 or 4.
I'm fucking pissed off that I always have to cut my sleep so I can finish up my projects, juggle my time with friends and my CCA until I always forget everything and mix everything up. Even with an organiser.
I'm fucking pissed off 'cos I'm stinky. I'm smelly. I haven't eaten dinner and my dad has the cheek to come and tell me that fucking sentence. I'm just so damn pissed off now.
I'm fucking pissed off at my dad for saying "Did you say Fuck to me? Just now?". NO I DIDN'T SAY FUCK TO YOU. I SAID FUCK TO THE SITUATION. IF IT WAS DIRECTED AT YOU, WOULDN'T I SAY "FUCK YOU" INSTEAD? FUCK. USE YOUR BRAINS DAD. USE IT. YOU HAVE IT, SO USE IT. FUCK.
I'm fucking pissed off cos my dad didn't even realise that HE OFFENDED ME. I DIDN'T EVEN OFFEND HIM. AND HE DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER SAYING SORRY. I DON'T GET ANGRY FOR FUN OKAY. I DON'T. I'M NOT AS IMMATURE AS I WAS BEFORE OKAY. I'M NOT. DON'T ASSUME THAT YOU KNOW ME DAD. DON'T. YOU'RE MAKING A FOOL OF YOURSELF.
Overall, just FML.
I hope I'll get a better day tomorrow. Public holiday and I have a CCA meeting tomorrow so that the future leaders can take over properly. Zzz. They better do their work otherwise I would be pissed.
I'm off to chiong my Spa Individual Report. As if I don't have enough to do already.
Get into good uni
Whooshies!
January 2007