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Saturday, March 29, 2008; 1:42 am

So many so many so many... O_O Multiplication

Hello people!!! SOOOOOOSOOOOSOOOOOO many things happened over the weekend, it's kinda scary...

Let's be practical and start from the top. :)

I just got addicted to Mahjong!!! Since last Wednesday's CYA Chalet on the 19th of March.. I've been playing from Monday to Thursday without a single day missed out on Mahjong.

Day 1: With CMI-fied
Day 2: With Jit, Nise, Darryl and parents (Sadly. Really very sadly, Pun couldn't make it. T_T)
Day 3: With JCG Gang at Weilee's place (Sadly, once again, Pun couldn't make it. T_T But it's okay. ~^_^~)
Day 4: With the JCG Gang... At MY place! XD!

You know, for day 1, Ning Zhi was the player before me. And she was so nervous to the point that it made me nervous as well... It made me shake my leg so much I swear that my mum would scream at me. 'Cos she believes in this Chinese saying that if you shake your leg too much, all your money would fly away... Haiss... Like that in the future, I foresee that I'll turn into a bankrupt. Ho hum.

WHEEEEEEEEE~ I learnt so many things about Mahjong! :) And I never knew it was pretty fun to play. But the only thing that I don't like is that it's a pretty complicated game on it's own... My gosh. The amount of rules it has can make someone faint already. =_= ZZZ. Dunno what "tai" and "Flower" and "animal" and "doubles" and "pong all the way" and "kang" (sp?) And "table wind" and ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Anyway, composure kept, I think it was pretty fun. ^^

Moving on: Lucky, who is Weilee's Jack Russell, can jump effing high to the point it scared me the first time I entered it's house. I SWEAR IT'S ON CRACK OR SOMETHING! Did you know Lucky jumped to my chest level 3 times consecutively??? If Rusty competed it in terms of "ZI-HIGHNESS", Lucky wins PAWS DOWN!!! @_@ Lucky also loves to hump people who wears denim materials by the way... O_o Eeeps. Horny dog.

But I still love my Rusty. WHICH brings me to say that Weilee is good at handling dogs... He could make Rusty stand by just wriggling his fingers in a funny pattern. Lol... Those two are really adorableeee to watch... ^^

Anyway, the movie session was funny. There were 9 of us at my place yesterday... Me, Pun, Darryl, Weilee, Lucas, Michelle, Anzhen, Jeannette and Zen! And even LUANIE DROPPED BY! I LOVE YOU LUANIEEEEE!!! *hearts hearts hearts* Watching 200 pound beauty was so funny with you around! *Credits to Jeannette for bringing the disc!* LET'S DO MORE NEXT TIME!!! :)

I swear this post is jumping from here to there in random order and I doubt you guys are catching anything in anyway... But nevermind, I'm re-editting the post due to certain errors , which is depriving me of sleep. But it's okay... XD Oh wells.

Then, after too much mahjong, we all gave up already. Too darn tired and sleepy.. XDD So we watched Harold and Kumar, which is btw, darn funny as well, (THANK YOU, PLEASE COME AGAIN! _l_), and all the extras were all watched, which were also funny as hell... We played Pokémon Monopoly, in which Lucas was the ultimate winner in terms of cash and assets. :) Wheeeeeee~

Lalalalaaaa, Lucas can become my future financial consultant!!! :) XDDD!

Anyway, moving on to today... :)

Today, me, Pun and CMI-fied went to Lavender to find some tour agents for the trip to Genting... Then in the end, we postponed the trip to Genting due to:

Number1: We originally planned to go on the 14th-16th but PX has work on that day and can't go so it's okay, we shift it to 10th-12th. :)

Number 2: Ning Zhi can't make it on those days either so it's okay. :) We postponed it lo. ~^_^~ Doesn't harm anyone... I mean, Genting will still always be there and won't be sinking or be melted by any random volcano any time soon right? XD Wheeeeeeee~ I mean we don't really wanna go when one can't go, right? Let's just go there when EVERYONE can make it. :) Then everyone happy. :)

So after my trip to Lavender, I went with NANA, BEN AND DARRYL TO T3 POPEYE'S FOR DINNER!!! Wheee~~ Gooooood fooooooood! Goooooooooood Stuuuuuuuuuuuff!

I couldn't stop laughing especially when Darryl or Ben started chewing and their temple area - the wad of hair - would start moving in a funny-ish way and I swear I felt the whole restaurant's full of eyes on me. BUT LIKE I CARE! I just laughed and laughed and laughed and the rest laugh and laughed and laughed. AT ME~~~!!!

Lalalalaa~ Then we played Taboo near the seats and we had lotsa fun!

Inside joke:
*BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH! WARLOCK!*

The word was "Spain"

1: *grabs knee* OWOWOWOW!

2: Pain!

1: Add an "S" in front of it!

*total silence*

2: Spain!

The ultimate Joke of the day! XD

Anyway, I'm feeling rather lethargic to type already.. Feel like sleeping... Tomorrow have to wake at 9:30AM.. Sian.. So good nights people. I sign off at 2:53AM.

THANK YOU, PLEASE COME AGAIN! _l_

Friday, March 21, 2008; 7:17 pm

Friendship

This is supposed to be inserted at the end of the post. But it'll kinda ruin the mood so yeah: Thank you Mel C, Mel Q, Shar, Luanie, Grace, Cheryl Tan, Cheryl Lin, (ex-)FOS, Emergence, Jit, Nise, Mary, Pun & Darryl and guy gang, JCG fellas, CMI-fied, and the list goes on and on.

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Hello people! So good to blog again... Ahhhh~

But I'd like to say...
Anyway, something has been really really bugging me. It's Good Friday today. And I doubt I'd wanna blog about religion right now.

Moreover, I'm playing Minesweeper to kinda abstain from playing something I like. Or something along those lines. But I suspect I'll be playing it anyway. *shrugs*

But right now I just want to blog a little something about friendship.

Ever since I started playing Minesweeper from 6PM, (Yes. I am addicted to minesweeper now.. I played it 8 hours nonstop when I was working as a secretary for 3 days and had absolutely nothing to do) something someone told me that someone told him really bugged me.

Have you ever been called weird?

Nonetheless, by a relative or two, but I shall not elaborate. (Btw, I kinda dislike one of my relatives who talk like she's the top of the world. And she looks down on people whom she deems insignificant. So what if your English is fucking good? Or you're in the marketing industry? BLEAGH. Stuckup arse.) In many many many many numerous times in my life, I've been called weird. Oddball. Ahem. Basically, in actual fact, I don't really have so many friends, I have to sadly admit.

In fact, not even once, in all my life (literally), has my sister ever ever EVER gone out with me. Just as sisters. You know when you go out shopping and you go with your siblings that kinda thing? Somehow... Sometimes, the atmosphere I feel at home is kinda lonely, left out, what you may call it. You may blame it on the age gap I suppose.. Perhaps, that's why I indulge in activities and I like to busy myself all the time.

Just so that I don't get to feel that emotion.

Or maybe it's just my personality?

And even when you go for family reunions during Chinese New Year.. Not once, in my 17 years of my life, has she ever talk to me and involved me with the older relatives. As much as I try myself, I can't talk to them. They just feel like they're from a different dimension, you know? And sometimes, they even give you the cold shoulder and treat you like some idiot who doesn't know a fucking thing. And sometimes, that seriously smarts.

Hmmm.. I think my sister talked to my cousins more than she has ever talked to me in my whole life. Lol.. And I don't know why, but during these family reunions, I always end up playing with nieces and nephews. (Which is not a bad thing I must admit. They are just too adorable.) It's either that, or I'm watching the television and eating food. Alone.

But I just think, it's nice to be quiet for a change. ~^_^~

But one thing is for sure.. This loneliness taught me a precious lesson. The value of friendship.

They always say blood is thicker than water. And have you ever come across, or just even thought of a situation whereby it's the reverse? Whereby your siblings, imperfect as they are, they just abandon you? I know of such cases that happened to certain people, and I don't know what may happen in the future. But I feel, blood doesn't necessarily mean thicker than water. In fact, your friends maybe just the blood you're looking for. Or that they may be on equal level as your relatives.

*Please exclude twins, triplets, quadruplets, etcetcetcetc... OH! And boyfriends too. :)*

Who are the people that you turn to when you are feeling so ever down? Do you call your parents? Do you call your sister or brother? Or do you call your best friends who seem to never fail to be there for you all the time?

Who do you entrust your deepest darkest secrets to? Who is the one who would rush over to your place when you've just broken up? Who do you hang out with most of the time when you're free? Who are the ones who go "Mmmm... Cheesecake! Let's go eat it and indulge ourselves after the exam!" Who are the ones you truly truly wish you could go overseas with and enjoy the time of your life, laughing and playing with you? If you're a single child, do you depend on your relatives for help? Or friends first?

So does your siblings or relatives fulfill all these questions? If you say your friends, well. I rest my case. If you say siblings, then I would stand corrected. (There are such cases out there. But it's more of the minority.) But I suppose majority of you who reads, would agree with me that you'd rely on your friends. (This is based on an assumption. Feel free to tag if you think otherwise.)

So may I declare that friendship... Friendship is a vital part of life. Without friends, it's difficult to smile and say "Hello!" to the world, each time you rise to the sunshine. That's why to me, friends are on par with my family. In certain situations, they may play an even bigger role than family. :)

But family is still important. Afterall, they are still your "real blood".

I leave this debate hanging to spark some thinking.

OliOli-PooPoo left the battleground at 7:52PM.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008; 10:29 pm

AWWWWWWWWWWWW So touching!

I'M GOING SUPER HIGH!!!

YESSSSSSSSSS~!

FIRST AND FOREMOST! AHEM AHEM! Or... one of the TWO things I'm declaring in this post~!

I'd like to thank Mummy Mel and Luanie Monster for
creating such wonderful pictures and moreover, dedicating them to me
too~!

Or was it one picture? I don't know which one though... But anyhoo, I'll proudly show it to the world!!!

PRETTY WONDERDUL PICTURE! I love the details that Luanie put so much effort into... Looks so wunnerful~

I really liked this one. It seemed... Sort of magical. :) Reminds me of Sharon though~ ^^

I feel so HAPPY~ Thank you so so so so so so so so much my dearest Mummy and My Dearest Luanie Monster~! I swear my heart is soaring to the point that my heart can start singing "I believe I can flyyy~"

Anyway, one more thing I have to declare is:

I PASSED ALL MY PAPERS~

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Lalalalaaaa~ One more burden off my chest~

Anyway, I need to hurry and bathe then go meet Pun downstairs. I need to go for Sabrina's chalet and she's waiting for her pressie!

And tomorrow, Den is coming to fix something for someone special to us. Teehee! <3 (~_^)

Oh wells, Ciao for now~ <3

OliOli-PooPoo smacked her head on a pole when she didn't see what was going on in front of her at 10:46PM.

Monday, March 10, 2008; 12:30 am

The end of Year 1

Here I shall make a tribute to the class of Temasek Polytechnic that got me going spinning into a whole new environment: 1K03 'o7!!!

The BBQ AT WEI YAN'S WAS REALLLLY FUUN! XD! Let's do it again sometime!

:)

Anyway, one more thing I have to add:

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TANNYA! May the wishes you've made for the past 18 years come true~!

The next Academic Year would be kinda sad without you guys.. Hopefully some of us end up in the same class together! ~^_^~ At least there would be some familiar faces...

Looking back, I really feel so blessed to have met and made friends with all of you guys. Working together, laughing together, smiling together... It's really not going to be the same. *sigh* Dunno why I have this really heavy, sad feeling stuck in my chest but oh wells. You could say that I just don't wanna change classes and I'm trying to face away from reality. Or it could be that until now, I'm oblivious to the fact and it just hit me so hard on the face that I'm stunned.

2K0_... Whoever is going to be in the class, let's all face the new year with heads held high! *Why am I talking like everyone would feel the same way I do? XD I don't think everyone WOULD feel the same way, I guess... Everyone is entitled to his/her own opinion. :)*

To especially my CMI-fied:

I love love love you guys! You guys have just made the year really bearable and for me, that means a whole lot..

To be able to have a group of friends you can rely on to be there for you, to share happy moments and just have fun is really something joyful..

Everyone is different and I know that... Umm... For myself, it's a really difficult transition from an all girls' school with such a different environment to one with such vast differentials that you feel like you're in a whole new league and ball game.

Thank you so much! I know, one thing is for sure, I know that I really really don't want this little group to... You know... So let's go out more often and catch more movies together despite our busy busy and hectic hectic schedules with many many projects!

Another thing is: My Chinese definitely improved while I hung out with the clique! :) Having to speak Chinese and having you used to my REALLY REALLY WEIRD ACCENT was so amusing... And speaking the language as well is funny on its own... Moreover, half the time I didn't understand what the heck you guys were talking about when we first started. XD!

I pray we get into the same class next year in Sentosa! Then we all can enjoy the beach during our free time!

With much much much lovelovelovelovelove to the four of you!

New friends, old friends, familiar, unfamiliar. It's a preeeeetty nostalgic feeling I'm going through right now. T___T I dunno. Just... When I look back on all the class photos, the CMI-fied photos... It's like I'm going to go through another phase of a similar one that I've just experienced.

The first class BBQ, the CCN day photos x 2, sentosa trips, National Day outing, Christmas and Valentine's Day spent together, celebrating the end of exams! Random photos taken in school, various birthday outings, birthday presents bought, classes that we've pwned, lectures we've purposely missed, random photos taken together in school or outside, lunches eaten with laughter, slacking, fooling around, lunches missed due to the EFFING projects, bus rides that nonsense was so seriously discussed and... The recent (and final) class BBQ. Shit. The feeling just got heavier.

*sigh*

Nostalgic and yet happy/sad/amusing memories I'd definitely keep.

I didn't expect this day to come so soon. But all good things have to come to an end. And with it, new beginnings occur.

Now, all of us are anxiously anticipating the exam results... It's the very very last thing we would sort of experience together as a class. Though we're sort of apart, you know? Nostalgia. Hit you squarely and sometimes, sorely on the chest. Right on target.

Anyway, I'd like to wish everyone GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST! :)

OliOli-PooPoo lala-ed away to hunt for Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge manga online at 1:01AM.

PS: CMI-FIED! I LOVE YOU GUYS (Or should I say GIRLS XD) AND AS I ALWAYS LIKE TO SAY: LET'S GO MAKE MOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMORE
MOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMORE
MOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMORE
MOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMORE
MOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMORE MEMORIES TOGETHER!!!

PPS:

The Suicidal Song! XD!

Ore ga shinji matta daaaaa~
Ore ga shinji matta daaaaa~
Ore ga shinji matta daaaaa~
Tengoku ni itta yooooo~

XD! -Courtesy of PF~

PPPS:

Quotes from JUNO~

(When caught in a bad situation) A good person is when they still think the sun shines out of your ass.
Doctors are people who like to play God and watch the lesser people scream.
You should go to China. They give out babies like free iPods.
New mum: How do I look?
Juno's mum: You look like a new mum. Scared Shitless.

PPPPS: I really really really hope some of us are in the same class next year. Lol. *Starts to pray fervently* XD!

PPPPPS: SUBPAPERS FTW!!!

Thursday, March 06, 2008; 2:17 am

God VS Science

THIS POST. IS WITH ALL DUE RESPECT, ONE OF THE MOST INTERESTING "CHAIN MAILS" I'VE READ.

AND KUDDOS GOES TO MELLY DONKAY'S BLOG!!! :)

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GOD VS SCIENCE

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A science professor begins his school year with a lecture to the students,'Let me explain the problem science has with religion.'

The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I' m evil.'

The professor grins knowingly.

'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues.

'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed toJesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says.

He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one.

'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student falters. 'From God.'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?'

The professor continued, 'If God created everything,then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principlethat our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Again, the student has no answer. 'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student squirms on his feet. 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.

'Who created them?'

There is still no answer.

Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice betrays him and cracks. 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him.'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of His own.

'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The roomsuddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that.

There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees.'

'Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.

You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation.

'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir.

Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it?

That's the meaning we use to define the word.'

'In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.

This will be a good semester.

'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.

'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God.You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.

Sir, science can't even explain a thought.'

'It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going.

A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?'

The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain?

No one appears to have done so.

So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir.'

'So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues.

'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?' Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describethe absence of God.

God did not create evil.

Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

The professor sat down.

If you read this all the way through and had a smile on your face when you finished, mail to your friends and family with the title: God vs Science

Glenda Lord-Wright
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Lovely hilarious and witty story, ain't it?

Oh wells. Need to catch the Sandman now. :) Tata for now, world~

OliOli-PooPoo signed off with a sigh and deflating the bed with her weight at 2:41AM.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008; 8:16 pm

Ever Ever After by Carrie Underwood

SORRY ABOUT THE PREVIOUS EMO POST! :))))

Nownownow... I have a new song to show all of you and it's called...

EVER EVER AFTER!!!

The theme song for ENCHANTED!!! Do watch and enjoy her wonderful country voice. :)

(PS: I love the way she has her own character in the animated form! ~^_^~ SO CUTE!)

Lyrics provided below.

Ever Ever After by Carrie Underwood

Ever ever after
Storybook endings
Fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we wanna believe they still do
And a secret it taught
It's our favorite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too

Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away

Start a new fashion
Wear your heart on your sleeve
Sometimes you reach what's realist by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you

Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart believe in ever after

No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted
You just might break through

To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe it's just one wish away
Your ever ever after

I've been dreaming of a true love's first kiss
Oh, Oh for ever ever after

Wishes

I wish I could find myself. I wish I could know who I truly am. I wish I could only stop the facade that I just began.

I wish my stomach would just stop feeling full and causing me to lose my appetite.

I don't know. I don't care. I feel so odd. And I don't even know why I'm upset.

PMSing? Highly unlikely. Mood swings? I think so. Depression? Maybe.

It's so annoying when you can let the water stop flowing into the deep blue ocean. It gets even more annoying when it seeps into the depths of your soul, crushing you, tearing you to pieces.

Not that dramatic I suppose but you get my drift.

I feel selfish. Yet I know that someone out there has a much much more bigger trouble than me and is handling it with heads held high. Without a sign of a white flag anywhere. I'm so SELFISH and I really CRAVE for this want to STOP.

Just STOP!

Yet I helplessly let these emotions take over and afflicting with everyone else's lives.

Depression.

I know it as the saddest word in the dictionary. And it's something everyone should try as much to face the music and live without this depression.

As for now, to hell with lack of appetite, to hell with tantrums, to hell with sadness and most of all..

TO HELL WITH DEPRESSION. GET THE FCUK OUT OF MY LIFE, FCUKING DEPRESSION!

For now, I shall remain happy. In my cocoon. In my little world of bliss.

OliOli-PooPoo signed off at 8:04PM.

Ups and Downs

Today... I feel so sentimental.. Perhaps it was due to the fact that yesterday, I finished the book I was reading, "If you could see me now" by Cecelia Ahern... Recommended to me from someone way back. :) Perhaps I could write- Or in this case.. Blog about what I'm currently thinking now. Cos I know I have a hell lot of things to talk about. About the movies I've recently watched (Got some really good quotes from "Juno") such as: Juno, L Change the World, PS I Love You, Jumper, and etc etc etc etc... But I feel that this blog post isn't the right one to say all these right now.

Life is so short. People come. People go. People make footprints in your life and they leave it there and sometimes, never look back. People you cherish age and wither away with time. Slowly yet surely. And with age comes diseases, sickness of every kind, causing them to be 6 feet under in a faster rate when you wish it was the opposite.

Have you ever wondered when your friends would go? They come. And they stay for a while... But do you take them for granted and not cherish the moments that you can be ascertain that they are living and breathing, creating memories with you? Life is so fickle and fragile in that sense. But yet, life itself can give you the moments that you would never forget. That you will always forever will cherish. A chance that you would be able to lift your feet off the ground and soar in the skies, dwelling in the fact that all you are experiencing is a moment of eternal bliss, a moment of pleasure, a moment of pure happiness, a moment of abundance and a sense of joy that cannot be put into words that are limited by that Oxford Dictionary.

It's such a wonderful sight. To see the children running around and playing. To see the cool breeze chase after the leaves that cause them to take flight. The birds, besides the crows and mynahs, that sing a wonderful tune and the crickets that join in the symphony. Isn't it ironic that only those who have only a limited amount of lifespan estimated by people in white coats, can fully appreciate the tenderness of life? It's because their lives are limited, thus they can finally open their eyes and see. All the time, Mother Nature is working around the clock 24/7 giving everyone a fair share of their daily dosage of "vitamins" but it seems like most of us, "patients", push it away and think it would "taste disgusting". We always lose out on the wonder of the world. The wonder of beauty and nature.

Tell me, how many women out their prefer to take their time to observe their children grow up or take a long stroll in the park rather than go to concrete masses of jungles to find the assessories that they adorn twice in their lifetimes? Or the men that sit on the beach and appreciate the cooling waves of the oceans blowing on your face instead of watching 22 men on a field chase after a ball or drinking away yellow liquid and getting red in the face like a terribly sunburnt idiot?

Love. Love love love. Isn't it such a romantic word yet it can take on such a great amount of different forms? The power that humans can unleash when it is for their loved one. The amount of hatred that one could produce when your loved one is in danger or hurt. The extent that you would go the extra mile for when you experience the love that knows no boundaries. The way it forgives and forgets, smiles on you, laughs with you, cries with you, aches with you, and even makes you feel that it's tearing your body, heart and soul apart, ripping it to shreds and flying off with the wind. Love is such a strong emotion and portrayed on the big screens that people find angst in or perhaps, a small joy that blossoms in the heart only to be extinguished when the roll of film ends on "a happy endings" note and forgotten once you forget about the film. (Besides romance films like "PS I Love You" which may show such instances)

I don't know about life and it's wonders, but I feel that what is portrayed on the big screens is an advertorial on what love is like. Love can't blossom through an hour or two's worth of film (Besides considering time lapses) It just shows what love is like on the surface and not how love puts you through the most dangerous and stormiest seas or the most peaceful and enjoyable rides in your life. The way that you really and truly feel when you go through a heart break, the anguish that you feel when a loved one is lost, the happiness that you truly feel can't be taken away by anyone, the joy when you are with that someone till you feel like you're on top of the world, the sadness when your loved one is feeling so hurt and down that you just can't help but mourn.

Time heals everything. And along with time would be happiness. Without both coming in hand-in-hand, imagine over a span of 5 years, you feel depressed and without happiness mourning every single day? Or a fleeting moment of happiness followed by sadness all the time? Demoralising is what I would call it. It leaves you demented, disillusioned, so full of negative thoughts and moments that it sends you reeling and crashing headfirst onto the cold, hard concrete floor. But. With time, and with happiness. Not a fake happiness that keeps your hurting self hidden away from the world. A true smile, a true voice of laughter. Perhaps a taste or injection of God as well. You can overcome any psychological obstacle. Anything at all. Giving yourself patience, giving yourself time, giving yourself the forgiveness that only YOU can give, anything could be and would be healed. It works for me. But I don't know about everyone else. :)

Well. I'm finished being sentimental. It's getting late, and perhaps it may be detrimental instead of sentimental tomorrow. XD

To those who would read:
I hoped something here did help you.

Take care and god bless.

OliOli-PooPoo signed off at 3:05AM.