What seemed like a joke turn into a drama series.
And I don't see a happy ending.
A 5-15 minute joke is fine. I was perfectly okay with it. But a 2 hour joke??? About closing something I put my effort into? About quitting another main-comm role in TPCYA JUST so I can help with whatever I can for the group?
If ANYONE.
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN WHO. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN HOW OR WHAT. IF ANYONE MAKES SOMEONE SO UPSET ABOUT THE JOKE, MAKES THE GROUP SO DISAPPOINTED FOR THE EFFING 2 HOURS, HOW THE **** CAN I JUST LET IT GO LIKE THAT?
I'm not going to give any apologies here to ANYONE. Read my words. I. Am. Not. Because to even suggest this joke is wrong.
And I'm in the wrong for going along with this whole joke thing. I swear I was not in my right frame of mind. For that, I am REALLY sorry.Besides that, I sacrificed my effort, time, energy, my all just to make this work and you joke about the group CLOSING DOWN for the whole 2 hours for the reason that you wanted to see if they treasure the group. I'll ask you. If you did that in a COMPANY.. Would you wanna stay on with the company that's closing down? What kinds of ideas are you bringing to the future of the group??
I thought you were just telling it to the subcomm. That I may understand. But to go so far as to joke to your
MAIN COMM?? Do you even
RESPECT THEM?
TRUST THEM? Do you know how they would feel?? They've been with you for the past 2 years! And now you just wanna step down asap??
It was one thing when he quit when he could not fulfill his own expectations and could not see any benefit and to know that he took up to role because he was taking up the challenge on changing the club.. I.. No. WE were already disappointed enough. Though I respect his decision, sometimes I really wished that.. You guys would think about those who were following your lead and example.
BUT I cannot blame you anyway because you were forced into the club. So to take up something.. A responsibility that you did not bargain for.. I applaud you.
It's another thing when you quit because something you did, did not go your way. But I'll put the jokes incident behind and I'll just let bygones be bygones. But I'm sorry too.
Leadership is not something you can just toss aside. It's about dedication. It's about thinking about
the shit your co-workers are going through before you think about the shit that you are going through. It's about seeing things through to the end. If you can't see things through to the end, then
don't even bother taking up the post and in the end, let everyone down.
I can't believe it. I'm just sitting here in my chair, tears flowing down my cheeks like they were rivers that just couldn't stop flowing.I've always contemplated on whether I was doing the right thing about not joining TPCYA just to help this group. Having sleepless and late nights, thinking in the shower, daydreaming about the club. Did I do the right thing? Why am I doing this? Why am I forcing myself to do work that I actually don't have to do and
just quit! I could jolly well just be a member.
Looking at things just makes me feel like
giving up but something is telling me not to because my Project Team is
depending on me like how
I depend on them.
I don't know man. I just need a holler at the beach. A scream. I don't know what to think. I'm just. Sad. Very sad. And I don't think I really wanna comment anymore.
I'm just so tired. I just wanna lie on my pillow and fall asleep. In a dream whereby I don't need to give a damn about the world. Don't need to care about anything else.
Maybe I'll do just that.
Goodnights world.
Get into good uni
Whooshies!
January 2007