Worries of the World... My World.
You know. it's been ages eh? And now, new worries have been popping up.
Well, at least I talked it out with Shar. Errr... On MSN. About about how things are with the gang. And it's sad to see that we're kinda falling apart. Not say falling apart. But more likely, Lesser time and space between us. IF you do know what I mean. Everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. Is falling apart. Except of our individual relationships with certain people I suppose. But it's sad. And sometimes, it can be too much for one to bear.
You know, I've been sentimental lately. And I've been thinking and realising that, with each step we take in our lives, we can either make memories or break memories.
Which is why you have to look before you leap. Something I learnt the hard way.
But anyway, it's not only me. The rest have been feeling the same thing too. And I think it's really sad. But at least, I hope with the place ready (UNCLE FASTER!!!) We may get back together again. And I long for those moments to return to. But I know it can never be replaced.
Which is why I've been thinking. Would any of the rest come back again? Have fun, play together? Now that most of us are going to either JC or Poly or studying for our O levels, would everything be the same again?
Same goes with the SOB. It's been a whole long while since we sat the the "besto place" and had a looong chat session/fooling around. In fact, we never had one this year. Due to JC hectic schedules, working schedules and busy personal lives, we have all been prevented from seeing each other for more than 6 hours in a loooongg looonggg errr... Month?
*Sigh* Why is it so hard to accept this? It's been ages. It's like I want my old life back. To the past. But I know that I can't change it and everyone has to move on. But it seems like I can't. I'm not ready.
Not like this.
*sigh* you know, I watched this movie called "Gridiron Gang" today. And I found it really cool. And it reminded me of our lives in terms of perspective. It made me think of this quote that I used to read in one of those teenage novels you can find sitting in some ulu corner of the Bedok Library one the first floor. "You can only move forward. Not back. You can't alter the past. You have to remember it. And move on along with the memories into the future."
I can't tolerate this. My friends are all unhappy about some personal stuff in their lives and all I can do is just selfishlessly watch them struggle whle I try to take their hand. Desperately trying to grab ahold of it. You know bestie, sometimes, I wonder when I can even talk to you and have a heart-to-heart conversation. Where we aren't separate by districts, by streets, by pedestrians, by time schedules. But I'm here. Right here. A phone call away to come to you and hear you out. :D And as for you ICG, I miss you too. And as a friend, I WOULD be concerned you know? I think maybe your bestie might've called you or something since she was concerned and kept on bugging me. Hey. What are friends for? Me and your bestie would always be hear to hear you out. Heck. You know, don't do this to yourself. Don't abuse or hurt yourself in all aspects. Physically, emotionally, etc. I'm worried for you as a friend. And your bestie might be the most worried out of all your friends too. Despite her not having a blog, she still wants to listen to what you have to say. And she says.... She's worried, concerned, and she called you the other night around 11PM++ after reading your latest news. And your mum scolded her. XD She says she sends her apologies for waking your mum up. (God... Why am I the middleman as usual???) But just to say that she misses you dearly. And I DO TOO!
And Shar, I'll try to tell you what I can if I am loaded. But time and space constraints us so. Which makes it even harder than what we used to do. I miss you. (What the heck. I miss everyone. =___=) I miss Mel Q. I miss Cheryl. Both Cheryls. I miss Luanie. (YOU DOO DOO!) I MISS SOB! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUUUUU GUUUUYSSSS??? And I also miss you Jit. One of my best buds too. We're all so cooped up in our little world that we don't even realise that we have even lost touch. (Hopefully not... *crosses fingers*) *sigh*
Ramble is over. Maybe I'll talk more of my day sooner or later. Morning shift tomorrow. *groans*
Ciaos and g'nites.
Oli
Digital Love by Daft Punk
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling rightYou wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun'
Before I knew it this dream was all gone
Get into good uni
Whooshies!
January 2007